My First Job

 2nd December 2020

Since my dad always scolded me to not use phones on the dining table. I had kept my phone on charge. After having my lunch I came to my room to check my phone, I saw a lot of messages. Thought another quarrel must have broken out in our class group. I checked the chats, there were around 18 messages in the College Placements group, which meant either someone's luck was in favour and they got placed or another sales company had sent their job description and website link for placements.

Well, I saw that Cognizant had sent their list of placed students. My heartbeat rose gradually.

100 Reasons To Stay Alive 💓

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1. To make your parents proud 

2. To conquer your fears 

3. To see your family again 

4. To see your favourite artist perform live 

5. To listen to music again 

6. To experience a new culture 

7. To make new friends 

8. To inspire 

9. To have your own children 

10. To adopt your own pet 

11. To make yourself proud 

12. To meet your idols 

13. To laugh until you cry 

14. To feel tears of happiness 

15. To eat your favourite food 

16. To see your siblings grow 

17. To pass school 

18. To celebrate birthdays 

19. To smile until your cheeks hurt 

20. To meet your internet friends 

21. To find someone who loves you like you deserve 

22. To eat ice cream on a hot day 

23. To drink hot chocolate on a cold day 

24. To see untouched snow in the morning 

25. To see a sunset that sets the sky on fire 

26. To see stars light up the sky 

27. To read a book that changes your life 

28. To see the flowers in the spring 

29. To see the leaves change from green to brown 

30. To travel abroad 

31. to learn a new language 

32. to learn to draw 

33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them 

34. Puppy kisses. 

35. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek). 

36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them. 

37. Trampolines. 

38. Ice cream. 

39. Stargazing. 

40. Cloud watching. 

41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets. 

42. Receiving thoughtful gifts. 

43. “I saw this and thought of you." 

44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you." 

45. The relief you feel after crying. 

46. Sunshine. 

47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention. 

48. Your future wedding. 

49. Your favourite candy bar. 

50. New clothes. 

51. Witty puns. 

52. Really good bread. 

53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time. 

54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.) 

55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling. 

56. The smell before and after it rains. 

57. The sound of rain against a rooftop. 

58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing. 

59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them. 

60. Trying out new recipes. 

61. The feeling you get when your favourite song comes on the radio. 

62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage. 

63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable. 

64.Breakfast in bed. 

65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theatre. 

66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning). 

67. the feeling of being loved

68. Forgiveness. 

69. Water balloon fights. 

70. New books by your favourite authors. 

71. Fireflies. 

72. Fulfil the Goa Plan. 

73. Realising that someone loves you. 

74. Spending the day with someone you love. 

75. Spending the whole day in bed. 

76. Eating a whole pint of your favourite ice cream. 

77. Floating in water on your back and just staring up at the sky. 

78. First dates (even the bad ones make for funny stories.) 

79. Bonfires and whiskey. 

80. Relationships where you love someone but aren’t in love with them. 

81. Coming home to someone you love. 

82. The colour of autumn leaves when they change. 

Summer. 

83. Singing songs at the top of your lungs with your friends. 

84. Cuddling. 

85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed. 

86. Someone’s skin against yours. 

87. Holding hands. 

88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world. 

89. Singing off-key with your best friends. 

90. Road trips. 

91. Spontaneous adventures. 

92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes. 

93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees. 

94. Thunderstorms. 

95. To witness your first (or hundredth) success. 

96. The taste of your favourite food. 

97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning. 

98. The day when everything finally goes your way. 

99. Compliments and praise. 

100. to look at this moment in 10 years time and realise you did it.

PS: there are so many beautiful things to live. so live, and live, and live.

All I had to say was "Thanks for your compliment."

Had I known what was to follow, I would have hugged him saying, "Thanks for your compliment"

15th May 2021

My Internship at Cognizant is closing in on the final project. All teams are busy in the planning phase of their topics and scrum planning dividing tasks and user stories among teammates. Our scrum master had divided the teams based on two students with a Computer science background and three students with a non-CS background. 

But to our misfortune, we elected the group leader who left the internship midway, leaving us with a topic he was confident in and we were not so sure about. Of course, at the time of topic selection, we had brainstormed through ideas but he convinced us on that topic, and we accepted to the point that we will get to learn something new, something different from the other teams. 

Now, what we were left with was something new, something different from other teams not to learn from it, but to anyhow complete the project. We took up the challenge and motivated each other that we will do as much as we can and let our Scrum master decide our fate. But for now, we will give our best. 

We sat down for hours making the user stories, seeing through codes and building the framework on whose basis we will execute the code that we add individually. 

Approximately, 25% into the final project, in our daily meetings of the whole cohort, the scrum master took notes our every team's progress. Our team no. was No.5 and we were waiting patiently for our turn. 

Team No.3's progress was seriously lagging, and our scrum master was scolding them for their slow progress. The teammates started to argue with him, and although I could understand some of their points were legitimate, we kept quiet and let them discuss it. 

But I became impatient when he dragged our team into the quarrel saying, other teams like No.5, and No.2 are not even doing the project themselves. Well, the group lead of team No.2 didn't take it very well and jumped into the chaos being rude to the guy. I quickly messaged in my team group to keep quiet and let me handle the situation. 

i accept in my school days, I was always the short-tempered guy, but with passing years I had learned to control my anger and channel it in a more efficient way. 

Waqt Waqt Ki Baatein

।। दर्द  का असली मतलब,
महसूस तो किया मैनें।
पर दोस्त की कामयाबी देख,
खुद को संभाला मैनें।
आज उसकी खुशी के मौके पर,
बधाई दी दिल खोलकर मैनें ।
उसको क्या बताऊँ अब?
जो मिला उसको वो चाहा मैनें ।
अब जब पीछे मुङता हूँ,
तो दिखती है २.५ साल जिया मैनें।
१.५ साल जो रह गयी अधूरी,
सपने में भी न सोचा मैनें ।।

I Have A Dream

I have a dream that one day every valley shall be engulfed, every hill shall be exalted and every mountain shall be made low, the rough places will be made plains and the crooked places will be made straight and the glory of the Lord shall be revealed and all flesh shall see it together. This is our hope.

-Martin Luther King Jr.

I have a dream that one day this pandemic will end and we shall breathe freely. One doesn't realise the intricate things the pandemic has affected. Cases are rising again, people are dying, Covid Warriors are fighting on. But, realise this, we have forgotten to breathe freely, we have lost the social skills, we have slowed down towards our goals and the world has also slowed down on its technological advancements and revolution or evolution whatever it keeps doing without bothering much. 

There are good things and bad things, just like two sides of a coin. This pandemic has also affected us positively. Am I saying it right? Doesn't matter, now people express opinions without thinking. Pass on judgements without introspecting and make decisions without consulting. I wonder what these big consulting firms are even doing. They could at least give me consulting as to should I apply butter on my bread or cheese. 

We

 I was walking across the street,

And I saw you by the banyan tree.

Your eyes glittery looking at me,
With hair locks like that banyan tree.
I thought to wave back at thee,
And luckily was meant to be.
For the high tide was now behind me,
For now I was someone probably better than me.

I was not sad, just famished of your touch
All I wanted was to keep you clutched.
I hugged you like I always wanted to,
For now I held you hand so did you.
Wasn't that all too wonderful for me and you?
It's been 10 years since I last saw you!

I desire to catch a glimse of you,
Just one more time to be with you.

This was all too wonderful for me and you.
Its been 6 months of WE instead of me and you.